simplicity feels like a crime.
maybe it was the hustle and bustle of a saturday. or maybe even the hustle and bustle of the week, which was crazy to say the least. and at the end of it all, after having a slightly more intellectual conversation with marvin, ella and michelle. i come out of it feeling immensely... short-changed somewhat.
i have always considered ( and thought myself albeit wrongly ) myself to be an intellectual. maybe it was just the thing about the company you are with, in camp im one of the brighter ones around while at school and in church im brought back down to earth. there was always this thing about, you know being in ri/rj, scoring good grades and doing well, going overseas to study and earning the big bucks, driving flashy cars and having a big house. yadeedahdeedahdarda. and yeah. i was just. on the bandwagon somewhat, though i never really knew. why?
marvin commented rather accurately that somehow. riches was not my main concern. maybe its inherited from my father's style, being extremely smart and knowledgable and logical, but yet earning a modest pay and yeah. so maybe i wasn't tailored to earn the big BIG bucks, and settle with a modest family life with modest luxuries. i don't really know. but i can feel that vibe inside me somehow. not the longing to strive and excel always to earn more and make more. but just to spend what's necessary. and be a family man. HAHA. i sound so cliche.
is simplicity a crime? hearing marvin and ella talking about their various genres of music and comics, to hearing jason and terence go on about their games. then i realize i have. next-to-nothing to hold onto, or am passionate about. like i have a void in my life that i didn't fill. that made my life seem so plain and boring. i like my soccer, and it has brought me places and experiences. but besides that. i don't exactly feel the NEED for something extra? contentment in what i have.. is pretty innate somehow.
i like my simple routine, which brings me to church and soccer on the weekends. watching and playing soccer gives me life, and without it i think, or rather i would shudder to think, what i'll be like.
i like my music which gives me something to shout and sing about.
i don't know.
maybe i'm just being post-modernist all over again. hurh.
is simplicity a crime? charge me for it then. i don't care(i wish).
sidenote: i'll miss ella and mich when they're in the uk man. miss the conversations about things i don't understand. and the perspectives from an intellectual (ok WELL-READ) person that i don't get too much of nowadays. by the time i next put in an entry. the two of them will be studying in uk. pray for them that they'll continue to shine and learn, and come back to share more and more about life and its angles! =)
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